Remember when I said I wasn’t happy about joining the StrongFirst Tactical Strength Challenge because of my overwhelming fear of failure? Because I was afraid of falling on my face and having other participants think, “I can’t believe that chick who went SPLAT is actually a personal trainer!”? Because I was afraid I wouldn’t be perfect?
I took a look at the numbers that people had previously put up for this same challenge last spring and learned that absolutely no one had deadlifted under 200 lbs. Well, I’d stopped deadlifting for a little while to reestablish a strong foundation that would eventually allow me to get to that number but, after talking to Sean, we’d decided that 185 was probably a good conservative goal for October 4. I. Was. Gutted. How embarrassing would it be if everyone hit a number in the 200s+ and I was the ONLY one — a PERSONAL TRAINER — who was still in the 100s?
After some friends I’d opened up to said, “WHO CARES what other people put up as long as you do your best?”, I finally decided to listen. I decided that I would walk into the gym and just do my best every time. Of course the first few times I walked in, the recording in my head sounded very sarcastic but eventually the recording started saying, “Do your best and KICK SOME ASS!”
Here are 5 things I am mindful about as I try to dampen my perfectionist tendencies and get out of my own way:
I certainly work hard at all of the above as much as the next person. And I think that, thanks to this work, I’ve been able to hit my deadlifting goal of 185 lbs three and a half weeks before the Challenge date! I fully intend to hit 200 by October 4th but as long as I do the best I can personally do, I’ll be proud that I followed through and accepted the challenge.